THE SCIENCE AND MATHEMATICS OF LOVE

Everyone wants to love and be loved. I know that sounds so unoriginal but that is the truth, isn't it? I would be dishonest if I say I haven't experienced love before but at the moment, I think I am better without (I'm on love sabbatical actually). Once I thought I would be a much more stable person (in all sense of the word) if I let love enter my life. No more late nights, no more hanging out with friends unnecessarily and no more destination unknown. Well, I was wrong and I guess I am still wrong. Love is not a determiner since it is not a causal or decisive factor for anything. On the contrary, it is simply an unstable (and sometimes, irreversible) modifier that can work for or against you. It would be much easier if love is like First Grade Mathematics; simple, workable and functional (some might argue otherwise) but it's not. To me, it is much more similar to a scientific experiment in the lab. God knows what can and will happen if you haven't figured out the correct formula, measurement, timing et cetera et cetera et cetera. Explosion, reversed effects, accidents. You name it and it's possible. Love is a science (some people say it's an art but I'm yet to find out how and why) and through science, fragrances and candies are created but let's not forget that flatulence and decomposition are also scientific in nature. Love is also mathematics since it involves a lot of probabilities and calculations. Love is just a combination of all things beautiful, ugly, fragrant, putrid, positive and negative. At present, I don't think I can all stomach all that and that's the reason I'm putting love on hold. In Mathematics, my love would be equivalent to zero and Science will definitely categorize it as inertia or even vacuum. Well, I was never good at Science anyway and I detested Mathematics like a disease so I figure I will never be good at love. If only love was an art and nothing else, I would definitely be a maestro...

WE ARE THE WORLD (TOO)

There has been a lot of hearsay on the Internet regarding the remake of 'We Are The World' and I personally don't think that a great song like that can ever be remade. I'm not hating or dissing anyone. I appreciate the effort and I support the worthy cause the project is for (not the project itself though) but I don't think I'll like the new version. 'We Are The World' was and is still special. It was a collaborative effort which involved many great artistes from the 80s although some famous names were also missing from the production. To remake that song would be equivalent to trying to replace your Mama's cooking (I simply can't imagine my Mama's cooking turned into a nouveau fusion cuisine). The song is good in itself and it doesn't need any new interpretation or production. Doing so would only draw comparisons on the vocal ability of the artistes or the music arrangement or the production itself. The focus of the original "We Are The World' was its purpose and lyrical content not the stars who volunteered to participate in it. Another similar effort would only be seen as insincere on the artistes and producer's part. Many will undoubtedly see this effort as another way of capitalising on a classic song and of course, Michael Jackson's demise. Those who are invited to participate but turn the offer down will definitely be labeled as heartless and insensitive. I'm quite sure this production is going to be a hot mess. Nothing can ever surpass the original Woodstock (all efforts have been in vain of course). We can never find another Elvis or the Beatles or Billie Holiday. Similarly, nothing will and can ever replace 'We Are The World'.

FIGHTING SOMEONE ELSE'S WAR (DON'T YOU HAVE YOUR OWN?)

It is strange how most of us feel much more at ease fighting other people's fights. It is as if by championing other people's causes, we will be seen as heroes or at least, someone who finds injustice and inequality totally intolerable and abhorrent. A borderless world does not necessarily mean that one can simply butt in and embrace whatever he or she fancies as a cause to fight for. We usually don't hesitate when it comes to accusing other people as trying to be the World Police or the Region Police or whatever Police there is but do we really notice our own faults when we ourselves poke our heads and stick our noses in someone else's crisis simply to show that their fight is our fight and their cause is our cause. It's easier being an unpaid commentator or a partial accomplice who adds fuel to a fire when one is not in the middle of the warzone itself. There is nothing wrong with picking a side but make sure the choice is right and not influenced by emotions or harbored by any ill feeling. Any fighting quarters will appreciate any support they can garner but we have to be careful which side we are on. Are we willing to be there when the going gets really tough or will we back off when we can't stand the heat anymore or when we know we have chosen the wrong side? Most of the time, we will (I know I will) opt for the second one since not many people are willing to put their asses in the frying pan if they can help it. Our initial involvement might just be an indication of our true nature : a meddler, a gossip monger, a busybody, an opportunist or whatever name that fits. Being sympathetic is good but is that sympathy genuine? If not, look deep into our souls and question our conscience. Don't simply butt in, don't even interfere, don't try to pry or in simple, plain English, mind our own affairs! Fight our own war. Find our own cause. Battle our own demons. Champion our own right. Don't be a meddler but be a true fighter. We don't have to prove to others that we are heroes. We only have to do it to ourselves.

VECTORISE ME!

What did I do during the weekend? I spent hours (yeah, that's right, hours!) in front of the computer trying to make a vector image of myself. I know my work is not as good as that of those who have received professional training but I'm quite proud of myself since I learned everything on my own (the Internet helped a lot actually). I wish I had more time on my hands and more skills plus lots and lots of patience and perseverance so I can explore other possibilities in ICT. Although my line of work is not ICT-related (not directly anyway), I believe that knowledge is still knowledge. I might never use the knowledge in any way whatsoever but it's a good feeling knowing what I have managed to accomplish. So here it is and I hope no graphics pros are going to laugh at it!

p/s I hope my lips are not too red in the picture.

NEW YEAR BABIES

It seems that I am the only one in my household who is not reproducing (by choice, of course). One of my cats gave birth to her second batch of kittens today. Instinctively, I knew she was about to give birth when she kept coming to me as if to tell me something. Maybe she thought I was a cat midwife! As much as I loved her, giving birth was something that she had to go through alone. I prepared a box lined with newspaper for her and kept her locked in the bathroom. True to my prediction, she gave birth not long after that. Her babies from her first birth are all gone except one and it didn't take long for her to start mating again. Some of my friends have suggested sending her to the clinic so she can be spayed. As tempting as it sounds, I cannot imagine myself doing that and denying her the right of becoming a mother. At the meantime, I guess I have to accept the fact that I am going to be the caretaker of this 'cathouse'. If only the cats were humans, I would have made lots and lots of money!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

At the moment, I am still trying to figure out what I'm going to write in this entry. 2009 was an ordinary year for me, just like the previous years. I went through it like I always did (in a daze). I did not expect anything amazing or fantastic to happen in 2009 and true enough, nothing did. People say that life is what you make it and I made 2009 the way I wanted it to be. I'm not saying that we can always be in control of our life (certain things can happen unexpectedly, of course) but we can always steer ourselves in the direction that we want it to be. As usual, I don't have any resolutions for 2010. This doesn't mean that I am afraid to commit myself to any task that might bind me (or make me feel guilty if it's not fulfilled). I am simply a person who doesn't believe in New Year resolutions (I might change my mind tomorrow, you never know). I believe I can make any resolutions anytime I want to and I don't necessarily have to start on January 1. Instead of looking back at my successes and failures on a yearly basis, I'd rather evaluate myself regularly. After all, I am still bound to make mistakes (which happen a lot) or even pick up new bad habits (which happen even more) as the year progresses. Ongoing personal evaluation also allows me to forgive myself (even if others don't) in case I fail to do or achieve something. Well, everyone has his or her personal style and this is mine. As long as we are able to better ourselves from time to time, nobody can say what is right and what is wrong to and for us. Here's to a better 2010 and let's put our best foot forward. Happy 2010!

2009 ROUND-UP

Any great achievements for me? NO. Any extraordinary happenings? NO. Any exciting changes in my lifestyle? Definitely NO. Everything came and went like the previous years. Am I happy? YES. To some, it can be quite strange how a person can be happy and content when not much has happened to him or her. Yeah but that's me. I'm comfortably cocooned in my life at the moment that I don't think I want anything changed (unless it's for the better). At least, not yet. I'm sure that something is bound to happen sooner and later and I'll be shocked out of my pants when that happens. Till then, I'm going to enjoy the routine that I've created for the past couple of years and if there are going to be any changes, I hope they will be gradual. Some of my friends have commented on my laid-back attitude and I can only agree with them. After all, what is there to argue when everything that they say is true? Still, it doesn't mean that I don't work hard or put in any effort at all. I do but I don't think I'll be increasing the quota for my effort any time soon. Even then, I would say that what I've done is definitely much more than that done by some of my colleagues and friends. So how about that?

MOM AND POP STORES VERSUS SUPERSTORES

Call me old-fashioned but I'm getting sick of seeing all these superstores cropping up everywhere nowadays. Most of the time, the service is bad, the staff unknowledgeable, the items overpriced and lack quality et cetera et cetera et cetera. The idea of getting everything that you need under one roof used to be a very attractive concept to me but I'm afraid it is no longer so. Sure, everything is much more systematic, the surrounding is more convenient and comfortable, the variety is endless and there are places for the kids and hungry stomachs but it is almost next to impossible for us to get sensible advice and good suggestions from the staff. Mom and pop stores have always been the staple of any small neighbourhood or town. Most of the time you know the owners personally and they know that if their service or merchandise is bad, words will definitely get around. The neighbourhood stores usually become a part of your life once you know how to spend money. As schoolkids, you go there to get your soda or ice-cream (sometimes cigarettes if you have learned to smoke). Your mother sends you there to get something that she needs. You can ask the owner(s) which item is good value for money if you are on a tight budget. You can even knock on the door before opening time and after closing time as long as this doesn't become a habit. In fact, you can get a very personalised service from them without paying extra for it. It is sad to see that more and more of these stores are closing. They simply cannot compete with the superstores in terms of attraction, convenience and choice. Not much can be done to save these mom and pop stores anymore. Most of them have become a part of history and those which are still in existence are barely surviving. I am all for development but seeing familiar and friendly places going out of business or being torn down is absolutely heartbreaking...

REVISITING SADE

I listened to 'Smooth Operator' and 'Your Love Is King' to death after I finished high school, grooved to 'The Sweetest Taboo' and 'Never As Good As The First Time' on the way to my lectures, mellowed to the rhythm and sound of 'Nothing Can Come Between Us' and 'Haunt Me' upon graduation, embraced 'No Ordinary Love' and 'Kiss Of Life' when I got my first real job and found solace in 'By Your Side' and 'King Of Sorrow' during a stormy relationship. Now, Sade, the chanteuse who popularised loop earrings and tightly pulled back hair is back to serenade me with her latest offering. Well, Sade is not just one person but a band actually. Her first single or more appropriately, their first single 'Soldier Of Love' has been released on their official website and unsurprisingly, to great reviews. I definitely do not know much about music but I do know what I like and I like the new song a lot. Some people say that their songs (especially the newer ones) are great to listen to when you are on drugs (or having a slight buzz after a few drinks). I don't know about that either but I can say that most of their songs can be quite addictive and have a tendency to stay a while on your mind long after they have finished playing. Unlike many of today's artistes who have succumbed to commercialism, Sade has remained true to their art and craft. It is quite difficult to put them in one specific genre but it is quite safe to say that their music is not meant for the average listener. The lyrics can be quite ordinary sometimes but they are true and not stupid (unlike most songs we hear nowadays). Sade has always been a classy act and the time is just right to show what class is in a world overflowing with hype and tackiness.

I DON'T NEED FACEBOOK TO......

I admit that I am a frequent facebook user and I guess at the moment there must be millions of people all over the world who are using this social networking website as well. While there is nothing wrong with facebook itself, I am saddened by the fact that there are many of us who have become quite dependent on some of the applications. Some would even go to the extent of consulting these applications to start their day or week. I believe that the users must have had some kind of modern education and I guess I am not wrong in saying that many of us have completed or in the process of completing our tertiary education. But why do we have to depend on facebook to tell us our future, who we will meet today, the colour of our aura, what kind of friend or parent or teacher we are, when we will get married, when we will die, who our secret admirer is, the most suitable job for us et cetera, et cetera, et cetera. Really foolish and total bull, I would say. Anybody with a brain can see that computers and these applications can't tell us anything if we don't feed them any input. Even if we provide the input, the output is not necessarily accurate and cannot be accepted as 100 percent true. Nowadays, facebook has become a place where users go to to boost egos, confidence, self-esteem and assurance. Wrong place, guys! We might as well :
i. pay a visit to the funfair/video arcade and slot some coins into the fortune teller machine

OR

ii. eat at a Chinese restaurant and let the complimentary fortune cookie decide our fate.

Don't we have faith in our ability that we have to consult these applications? Aren't we educated enough to know that no prediction comes with a guarantee? We are sophisticated and modern enough not to believe in superstitions, aren't we? What really bugs me is that some of these applications even use religious images and terms. There might be some users who say that they are using these applications just for fun when they are bored and that they don't really believe in what these applications say. Well, it's like saying we don't believe in horoscope and yet that's the first section we go to when we get our daily newspaper. Who are we trying to fool anyway?

Madame Zelda, what will I do today?