Saturday, April 9, 2016

APRIL 8 2016

Abah, it has been 11 years now and so many things have happened since that April 8 2005. After you left, I tried to do what I was supposed to do as best as I could. I am not sure if everything that I did was right but I know that my heart was in the right place when I did them. But now, there is not much that I have to do anymore. Not for myself anyway. I have vowed to keep our family together but that is all about it. Everyone is doing fine and I only have to be there when I am needed which is not that often. Other than that, life seems so empty without you and Mak. At the moment, I am just going through the motion of living from day to day. I am not saying that I am unhappy but I can't say that I am happy either. I try to immerse myself in whatever joyful moments that come into my life since I know that those moments can be fleeting and brief. I have a lot of good things in my life but sometimes, I feel as if I have nothing at all. I miss you and Mak very, very much. More than I can ever express. Now, Ati has also left us to be with both of you and that makes it even harder. I never thought for a moment that she would leave so soon. And on the same date that you left too. On this day, I pray that all of us will be reunited in the hereafter. Al Fatihah for all of you and may Allah bless your souls. Amein.